Raini Story

I want to tell my story here, because I have had to walk a very long and difficult path, in order to be able to find the sacred purpose God put inside of me which He wanted me to carry out, before He put me here.  I believe that purpose is to warn the world of the perilous straits we have gotten ourselves in, and how God foresaw it all, and God wants us to escape a disastrous event – a disastrous event that could, or would probably, result in the destruction of the entire human race.

I believe that this was foreseen by Our Lady of Fatima in 1917 in Portugal in the apparitions there, and again during the apparitions at Our Lady of All Nations in the 1940’s and 1950’s in Amsterdam.  I believe that I have been sent by God to try to alert my people here of the urgency of heeding those messages, which are basically that the world is in very dire danger of being taken over by communism, and if that happens, untold disasters will be unleashed on us all through the atheism of communism and through the ruthless lack of human rights that communistic regimes inflict on their people.  And because communism is so atheistic in nature, and because they invariably outlaw all religions that worship the Real God, humanity will be forced into a deeply dark and bleak spiritual darkness.  And because nature abhors a vacuum, since they will not be able to focus on the Real God, false gods will proliferate (i.e. bloodthirsty demons) to prey upon humanity.  And if that happens, civilization will fall apart.  We have already seen much regression of civilization in this regard.  The solution is to turn back to the One True God again, to pray and pray and pray as much as we possibly can, to re-establish our connection with God again.

Now I would like to explain what happened to me in my life, to give you an idea of how hard it has been for me to get to the point where I could even explain this purpose of mine to you.

I was born in 1958 to a loving Catholic family; I was the first child born in that family.  However, since two other siblings were born in quick succession after me, and all three of us were, thankfully, baptized when we were babies.  However, my parents became super stressed out with their financial and caretaking burdens that were foisted upon them by having such so many children born so fast; my father decided to leave Catholicism which heavily discouraged birth control, and my mother became addicted to tranquilizers when I was young.  As I grew up, I sort of became the “second Mom” of the family, the super responsible one, who attempted to fill the gaps for my Mom, such as always being the one to watch out for my younger siblings, to go to the market for my Mom when she needed groceries, to clean the house, to become her confidant, etc.  This became necessary because my Mom’s tranquilizer addiction left her sick in bed a lot, and unable to drive anymore due to her development of Epilepsy from the tranquilizers.  However, we had a fairly happy home, despite all that, and I dearly and fiercely loved both my Mom and my Dad.  My Dad, unfortunately, became involved in some spiritual groups that brought unwanted psychic activity into our household, unbeknownst to me at the time.  He would take my brother and sister and me to the public library often on the weekends, and read all he could on those kinds of things.  (As you may be aware, public libraries are decidedly non-Christian in their selection of materials having to do with spirituality.)  However, we kind of limped along that way, as the years elapsed, and things were relatively stable.

I was what was considered at the time a “gifted” youngster, with a high IQ, which I only know because for some strange reason when I was about 6 or 7 or 8, a School Psychologist came to my Elementary School to test me.  I remember not liking him much, because he seemed to be almost unnaturally interested in me, in my capabilities.  I remember, for some reason, feeling kind of like a guinea pig, or a puppy who was being asked to do tricks for him, and part of me resisted this attitude in him.  It was kind of like an icky superior attitude or something.  Anyway, my parents were told, afterwards, that I had an IQ of like 160 which was very high; however, I had a reluctance about me or about how I responded to the Psychologist that indicated that I probably should not be advanced in my grade level.  (My grade level was already a half-year ahead of what it should have been, because my Mom had altered my birth certificate to get me into Kindergarten faster.)  So then, in the 4^th grade, I had a difficult interaction with my teacher, because she had given the class a bonus math question, and I was the only one in the class that was able to figure it out, although we had not yet been given the tools for figuring out that type of math problem, and the teacher teased me and said I must have cheated.  When I told my parents that evening what she had said, my Mom went ballistic and wrote the teacher a scathing letter, expecting me to deliver said letter to the teacher the following day, even though I tried to tell my Mom that the teacher was only really kind of teasing me.  So, the teacher, when she read my Mom’s letter, accosted me at lunchtime and took me behind the bungalows and yelled at me with terrible abandon that day.  My parents came while she was berating me and took me back home, but I was pretty traumatized by the ordeal.  And so, after that, I decided that I wanted to skip a grade in school all of a sudden; I don’t really know if it was to avoid having to have that teacher the following semester, or just some unknown connection.  However, I did tell my parents that I was ready to jump through whatever strange kind of hoops I needed to jump, in order to skip another semester.  So, I was given about five books to read and study over the Summer, to catch myself up, so that I could skip the next semester and start the 5^th grade that Fall.  The reason I am telling you all this, about the School Psychologist, about being in the gifted program at school, and about skipping the grades so that I was basically one full year ahead of where I should have been chronologically, is that now all these years later, I wonder if I could have actually been unknowingly in the “MK Ultra” program which the CIA ran in the late 1950’s to the mid-1960’s.  I wonder if, perhaps, my parents knew much more about me than they ever let on, somehow.

I became very determined to get religion into my life, specifically Christianity.  I dearly, dearly wanted my entire family to go to church, but my father always said no.  It was always the most vehement of no’s.  He claimed at the time that he wanted us kids to find our way to religion on our own after we were older and grown up, and that he did not want to unduly influence us.  That was, however, obviously a lie, based upon what he did to us when were just a little bit older.  Anyway, I began taking myself around the corner to the church closest by to us, which happened to be a Presbyterian church, every Sunday, for Sunday school, on my own, when I was about 8 or 9.

So then, my Dad, who was an entrepreneur and started his own company out of our garage, was able to get a small manufacturing plant up and running with quite a few employees.  He named the company “Dia-Netics,” supposedly after my Mom, whose name was Diane.  However, now looking back at how my Dad was always reading things about the occultic side of life, if he might have read the book by L. Ron Hubbard called “Dianetics,” which was basically the precursor to Scientology: a very dark, worrisome “religion” which has persisted to this day.  It is, I believe, basically a cult.

So then, one of my male Cousins came to live with us, and he and my Mom, unfortunately, had an affair, which my Dad found out about; and then, my parents got divorced at the end of 1969.  My Mom ended the affair shortly thereafter, I think, but grew terribly despondent, and I took on more of the responsibilities of the home, such as often doing the cooking.  We moved in with my Grandma and Uncle, and my Grandma was kind of a backup for us in caring for us.  However, then my Mom overdosed on her tranquilizers and ended up being sent to a mental hospital for two weeks.  I, being a youngster who still believed in love, begged my Grandma to call my Dad, convinced that he would come and help my Mom in her time of need.  My Grandma resisted my pleas for a long time; however, eventually she gave in and called my Dad.  But instead of coming to help my Mom, he promptly came and swooped us up and took us away from her, claiming she was an unfit mother with the court.  And I was so traumatized by it, because during the two years of being apart from my Mom, my Grandma died suddenly when she was only 58 years old, of a sudden heart attack which I know was really a broken heart out of having called my Dad and having him take us away instead of helping my Mom – something that was a direct result of my actions; since we were only able to see my Mom twice a month, and were not allowed to call her on the phone, I embarked on a personal mission to ride my bike to the nearest phone booth to call her every day after she got home from work, and let her know what was going on with all of us kids, and try to carry out her instructions for parenting us all as she would want us to be parented in her absence; and through it all, all the false hopes of court dates every couple months where my Mom would go with her attorney to the court to try to get us returned but our hopes were dashed; of my relationship with my Dad turning to raging anger followed by coldness; I was haunted by what was happening to me, which was that I felt like my Dad was using me and my brother and sister as weapons to bludgeon my Mom to punish her for having her affair.  Of course, I could never say those words out loud, nor even articulate them at the time, but that is what really did seem to happen.  I was severely traumatized by being used as a weapon against my own mother.  So after two years of that, we finally were returned back to my Mom; however, my brother chose to remain behind with my Dad for reasons I never found out about.

So then, my Sister, Mother and I were at least able to be back together for a time.  My Dad remarried a lady with her own two daughters and one son, about 9 months after we came back to my Mom, and the blending of our families was very rocky, due to the fact that my Sister and I were still so traumatized by the two years of being apart from my Mom, just a short while beforehand.  My Dad feigned love for my Sister and I, and to his credit he always provided child support to my Mom, and attempted to spend time with us every couple of months.  However, our relationship was severely strained.  There was never any family therapy or any attempt by anyone to resolve any of the terrible feelings of anger and betrayal and sadness from my parents’ divorce and custody battle.  We were just left to deal with it however we could deal with it, which wasn’t too well, though we tried.  My new Stepmom told my Dad, about a year later, that she didn’t feel like I liked her, and he yelled at me severely for that while I was in the car with him, and told me sternly to be nicer to her, which I tried to do, to my own credit, though no one ever gave me any credit.

Anyway, then my Dad, on one of his visits to spend time with me, asked me if I’d like to go to a sort of New Age festival of a group he had gotten involved with, a spiritual group.  I, as someone who was desperately trying to mend fences with him, said yes, and we went to it.  It was an annual festival of  New Age church, which was really a cult of a charismatic leader, though I did not know that at the time of course, being only 16 years of age.  Anyway, as we had left our car to go to the festival, we were on a little narrow concrete pathway, and who should appear coming towards us, but this very charismatic cult leader, all alone, going the other way down the path?  My Dad was so excited to introduce me to him, a man who was about 25 years older than me.  He shook my hand and said some nice things about my eyes to me.  And we listened to the man’s seminar at the end of the night, in which I distinctly remember him saying something about how committing suicide was a brave thing to do.

Then I continued to grow up, and my Dad arranged for all of us three kids, and the three kids in the Stepfamily, to get a year’s worth of “instruction” booklets delivered to us, so we could learn about this cult leader’s philosophies and spiritual direction for our lives.  It was presented as something that my Dad wanted to help us with our lives somehow.  He took me and some of the other kids who were interested to live seminars with the cult leader talking.  I became increasingly involved with the teachings of the leader and increasingly wanting to be in his presence, because of his aura and his magnetism and whatever it was about him that was attractive to me.  I believed that this was God, that he was emanating God, but in reality, I found out much too late, he was emanating a religious demon who did a very good imitation of God.  However, it was not the real deal.  It was fake.  It as a demon.

As I became more enmeshed with that religious demon, my Mom’s health went downhill very fast.  I never tied the two things together in my mind, but looking back later, I can see that it was probably my bringing that demonic energy into my Mom’s home that caused her to go downhill.  She started exhibiting instability.  She started getting tranquilized again, at night, but was able to still work during the day.  It got worse.  And then, she told me, when I was 18 and was trying to help her, that she would commit suicide one day, after all three of us (her kids) were grown up.  This was shocking to me and deeply distressing, and I began failing in my classes at the University.  One of my professors told me that that kind of stress is exactly what caused students to leave college.  It seems extremely odd to me, looking back at it now, that my Mom, who had been so fiercely determined to get us back from the custody battle, would have turned around and wanted to end her life just a few years later.  Now, I know, it was that religious demon from the cult, that I had brought into her home, unknowingly.  I believe that it wanted to get rid of her, to get her out of my life, because she was the one person who still really believed in me.  But, I tried everything I could think of to try to help her, including, unfortunately, trusting my Dad too much and bringing him in on the problem-solving process.  He, and one of the therapists that was in that cult, suggested that we stage an intervention for my Mom, to try to get her to go get help for her suicidal intention.  However, I made the arrangements for the intervention with my Dad being present there as the token older person.  I should have known that would have made my Mom feel betrayed and extremely resistant to the intervention.  I should have asked my Uncle and my Mom’s Aunt to be in that room with us, instead of my Dad.  But I was just 20 years of age; I didn’t have any clue of what I was doing, really.  So, it turned out, that my Mom was very angry at all of us for holding the intervention, and she said no to getting help, obviously.  And I told her I would have to leave the house, because I couldn’t stand to see her preparing to leave us the way she was (she was leaving little pink notes all over different objects, stating who said object was to go to, etc.).  So, I moved to a little apartment near the University.  And then, my Mom shot herself in the head, four months later.  My Sister was still in her last year of High School.  In the meantime, my Brother had become diagnosed with Schizophrenia.

And so, then, traumatized by my Mom’s suicide at the end of 1978, I again followed my Dad and Stepmom further into involvement with the cult, by enrolling in a week-long intensive Insight training with only 40 participants in the room, just a couple months later.  It was an extremely intense training.  My intention was, obviously, to try to heal some of the trauma I had just undergone with regard to my Mom’s recent suicide.  However, the cult leader arranged without my knowledge to have a few moments with me, one-on-one, while at the beginning training, and the idea was obviously to try to “help” me with my trauma, or as they say in that group, help me to “clear my karma” from it.  Then later on that day, when I raised my hand to share something in the group about the suicide, the cult leader, who was one of the “trainers” in the front of the room, said something sharp to me, to shut me up from sharing, and I did shut up.  In fact, I proceeded to retreat way deep inside myself during that training.  I never resolved anything pertaining to the suicide.  What I did do was get deeply, deeply enmeshed in that religious demon, not realizing that that was what I was doing.  I remember seeing a ton of purple light in my mind’s eye, and the outline of a man’s body, and a big eye, almost that whole time during that training.  I came out of it feeling as though I had had a huge spiritual awakening, and for years I was convinced that was what it was.  But now, sadly, at age 67, I can see that is really the furthest from the truth, of what had actually happened to me.  What was happening to me was that I was getting more and more enmeshed with that religious demon, really.  Shortly afterwards, I had my first “initiation” with the group, where they connect you to the consciousness that they claim is God, deeper and deeper with each initiation, and they give you a “tone” to chant, which is a syllable or a series of syllables, to chant, in meditation, 2 hours per day, to get closer and closer to God (which was really getting closer and closer to the religious demon).

So, my grief period was well over 3 or 4 years, just to be able to function again – graduate from college, start working, etc.  I was not able to hold a romantic relationship for quite a while after the suicide, because I was so grief-stricken and wounded.  I kept getting more initiations through the years, and trying to do the special meditation that the cult practiced, which was silently chanting the series of syllables (tones as they would call them) every day.  I managed to get by.  However, my functioning was sort of marginal, even though I became a workaholic at my jobs.  There was something not quite right, which I chalked up to something in my subconscious somewhere.  Now I know, though, it was the involvement with this cult and their religious demon.  I was crazy about jogging, and did as much as I could throughout my 20’s; however, a work injury I had sustained to my back in my first job after graduation from college continued to plague me, grow slowly worse, and eventually prevented me from jogging anymore when I was 28.  I finally found love when I was about 25, with a man I met in my apartment complex.  However, we never married; we just lived together for 17 years until he finally left me.  He had serious commitment issues, to put it mildly.  I wanted to raise a family (at least have one child); he was very afraid of it.  So I used up all my fertile years that way, never having any children.  Eventually, my back pain grew worse and migrated also down to my hip, and then also down the thigh, and eventually down to my foot.  When I was 32, I had a low back surgery to try to improve the pain, but it failed and only made the pain worse, and I became disabled, having to lay down in bed most of the time, unable to sit or stand for long periods of time anymore.  I insisted to my boyfriend that I wanted to try to have a baby before my chances were all through, at which point he left me instead of helping me to have a baby.  That was in the year 2000.

Then, in December of 2006, I had my final “initiation” with the cult.  I had to drive a long way home afterwards (about two or three hours).  On the way home, I stopped for gas, and as I was pumping the gas into my car, I had a very strange sensation, like I was sort of “apart” from myself a little.  After I got home, I started to have more and more of this sensation of being “apart,” or not really there anymore.  By about March, the progression of it had become alarmingly weird and uncomfortable.  By about June, it had become terribly distressing, because it had progressed even further.  By about July, I felt like I had totally lost my Soul.  It was the worst feeling in the world, like being plunged into Hell.  It was the worst thing I have ever gone through: worse than the custody battle trauma, worse than my Mom’s suicide, worse than chronic pain so bad that I lost my job and my identity (from my work life).  It was worse than any of those things, by far, especially in the beginning, that Summer.  I had a therapist, but he didn’t know what to do for me.  I enrolled in a daytime mental health outpatient program which was about an hour’s drive away from me.  They didn’t know what to do for me really, either, but at least they sort of held my hand (figuratively speaking) during the days, so I would not have to be so alone with it at home, just freaking out about how awful it felt.  My Dad urged me to write to the cult leader for some help, which I did.  However, the cult leader, who had promised to be with us in any and all spiritual difficulties we might encounter, simply wrote back to me and said that no, I had not lost my Soul, though I felt like I had, and that was all I got from him.  That was the extent of his “help.”  And so, at the beginning of 2008, I stopped going to the daytime mental health outpatient program, and got a new therapist, who turned out to be the best therapist I ever had.  He kept telling me that I would eventually get better, and giving me hope, giving me a light at the end of the tunnel.  And he was right.  However, I was understandably craving some connection with my True Self, my Soul, and so I tried doing the old meditation that the cult had taught me (silently chanting the tones); however, all that did was make me feel worse, not better!  And so, I felt urgently that I had to find a way to connect with my Soul somehow.  And I thought about the old “Rosary” prayers that I had heard of growing up.  I decided to try to learn them and start to pray them.  So I learned how to pray the Rosary a little at a time, starting in about late 2007.  And I found that, as I prayed those Rosary prayers, I could feel a little “warmth” coming back into my body again; that warmth being the Holy Spirit, I believe.  My Soul starting to come back to me, I believe.  And so, I kept on praying the Rosary and going to see that wonderful therapist who kept giving me hope.  And between the two, I was eventually able to recover what I thought was unrecoverable.  I got most of my Soul back, after about 4 years of pure Hell.  As the four years rolled on, I started to feel better.  However, there was still a connection to the cult, albeit much milder than before, so I now know looking back at this that I still had Soul fragments that the cult had stolen from me, that I was going to need to retrieve over future years.  But the bulk of my Soul, which I had lost totally during the 4 years (which I began to describe as my “depersonalization” because that was the closest thing I could find to it on the internet) was mostly back.

In 2008, as I was in the thick of the depersonalization, I heard a male voice in my ear or my head telling me, “You’re gonna get fat.”  And although I kept copious food records as the years went on, showing that I shouldn’t have gained any weight at all, I ended up gaining about 90 to 100 pounds over the next 10-12 years, and was unable to prevent it from happening no matter what I did.  So, now I think that the male voice I heard talking to me that day was some kind of a warlock who was cursing me or sending me some kind of dark magic or dark spell-work.  And that kind of makes sense, that I would’ve been more easily susceptible to it during the years of the heavy depersonalization, because those were the years I was most plagued by demonic activity in my life – years in which demons seemed to be able to almost play in my mind at will, without any defensive ability on my part against them.

Also, during that time, my father passed away, in 2009, unfortunately, with our being more or less estranged at the time.  And that is because at the very end of his life, he let a couple of things slip that were very hurtful to me, and that let me know that he had been holding onto secret unforgiveness toward me for almost 40 years, because of how I had taken my Mom’s part in his custody battle with her, and how I had tried to protect her.  And so, even though I had devoted years and years toward accepting and forgiving his weaponization of me against my Mom during their custody battle, he had never forgiven me for taking her part in the whole affair.  And at the end, he did something that was so hurtful to me, that I just blew up at him, unfortunately, and we never mended fences before he passed.  And I’m sorry for that, but on the other hand, I know I did my best and way above and beyond healing the relationship between us, than he ever did for me.  And so, I asked Monks to pray Gregorian prayers for 30 days for him, as I had done for my Mom, and I now just try to send him love and forgiveness wherever he is in the afterlife, and pray for his Soul.

As I continued praying the Rosary, I became more and more converted to Christianity; to faith in Jesus.  I started to realize that my energy had been siphoned by the cult for decades, and wrote to them in 2010 telling them that I was leaving and to not send me anything ever again, and to stop their psychic connection with me, immediately.  Of course, they did NOT discontinue their psychic connection with me, no way, no how.  In fact, that is when the psychic attacks started against me, or when they really ramped up, I should say.  (Hearing them call me names in my mind; some of them the most foul and disgusting things…)

As I continued praying the Rosary, and I got more experienced with it, I started to want to make it more meaningful to my prayer life, by actually trying to meditate on the mysteries of each of the decades of Hail Marys, as we are instructed to do when we learn how to pray the Rosary.  So I started to read books about these “mysteries,” which are really just aspects of Jesus’ Holy Being and His Holy Journey, to help me when I prayed.  But I found that most of the books had really long explanations that were hard to remember later at the actual time of praying; or else, I found that the repetition of that aspect to myself in my mind became too boring for me, week after week after week.  So, I became interested in finding some kind of a companion book to use while praying, that would change week by week.  I found one, written a long time ago by Fr. Patrick Peyton, that was given out to soldiers and sailors in WWII because it was so good.  It was similar to what I wanted.  However, it was not exactly what I wanted, and also, it was not long enough.  So, I started writing my own around 2012 or so, and accumulating them.  And eventually I had some 900 pages of meditations on mysteries.  So I pared them down to around 400 or 500 pages, and created my own book which I self-published in 2021, called “Rosary Mystery Meditations: A Day-By-Day Prayer Companion,” a large book, with enough material to be a prayer companion for thirteen weeks’ worth of meditations, with five meditations per day (one for each of the five decades of the Hail Marys that day), that didn’t repeat, but were different slices of reflection on Jesus’ life and Being.  It came out in October 2021.  It was, unfortunately, a pretty colossal failure in terms of success in the world, but I found it, and still find it, incredibly helpful in praying my Rosary, because it helps me reinforce Jesus’ teachings a little bit at a time, over and over and over again.

My ex-cult leader, I found out, passed away in 2014.  The psychic attacks, which I thought might stop after he died, actually kept going instead.  And it was sometime after that (2014)  when the hacking of my computer began, I think.  My cursor would move on its own, and weird things would happen like windows would close or change shape without my doing anything to ask them to do so.  Or, a message would appear in my Word document saying that someone had made changes since the last time I had been on.  Weird stuff like that…  I kept buying new computers to try to escape the problem, and for a while it would go away, but then it would always return.  I asked a local computer guy to look at my computer, but he claimed he couldn’t find anything wrong.  So, I bought a new computer again, and got a VPN for it in addition to regular anti-virus protection, but the problem still came back.  This time, when I asked the same computer guy to come and take a look at it, he ghosted me and refused to even respond to me.  Then, after my book was published in 2021 and I started putting excerpts of it on my X account in the Community pages section, the hacking seemed to grow even worse.  By 2025, I was being seemingly cyberstalked by Elon Musk impersonators on X, who had targeted me for some reason.  I made the mistake of interacting with one of them in the Summer of 2025 through the Direct Message feature of X, which resulted in them hacking my cell phone and creating a false X account for me which I had nothing to do with.  And then in the Fall of 2025, some anonymous person somehow got into my original X account and changed my entire profile page, and when I asked X Support for assistance to help me fix it, they simply ignored all my requests.  The whole latter part of 2025 was strange after that, in that I got locked out of my X account, and then started getting heavy witchcraft influence, seemingly, and sort of went into an altered state of consciousness, followed by having a suspicious car accident while driving alone, where I blacked out for no reason and totaled my car in December 2025.

2026, so far, has been creepy and creepier, with more of what seemed to be spiritual attacks on me, such as heavy witchcraft spell-work, designed to short-circuit my brain.  And also, more hacking of my cell phone and computer.  And also, a concerted attempt to lure me into abandoning my safety in order to meet someone online.  And then, finally, in March, an actual bitcoin scam to get me to buy some shares of stock.  I slowly was able to disconnect from the seeming net of illusion that was attempting to wrap itself around me, and break free.  And in April 2026, in the process of doing that, I felt like the last Soul fragment that had been stolen from me by my cult was finally returned back to me, after 52 years of having my Soul sucked dry by them.  And while that was incredibly freeing and wonderful, it was also incredibly sad and rage-inducing for me, to realize that I had had my whole life, basically, stolen from me by them.  But because of all the acceptance and forgiveness work I had done since the 1990’s, in particular the acceptance and forgiveness work I had done for my Dad in the 2000’s, I found it a lot easier to reach for forgiveness to the cult for what they had done to me.  And I am still working on that forgiveness process to this day.

And so, this is kind of a thumbnail story of my life up to this point (in 2026).  I really don’t know what is going on; only just the thinnest veneer of what has been going on this whole time with me.  If something happens to me, just know that I did not “Jeffrey Epstein” myself.  My ex-cult would no doubt try to say that I did, because they seemed to have a narrative about me that suicide was my fate or something, because my Mom committed suicide and so therefore I would probably follow along in her footsteps.  But be assured, I never will.  Never.  And neither should any of you who may be reading this.  Suicide is what Satan wants for each one of us.  He hates us.  This is not some psychotic opinion coming out of me; this is straight out of the Catechism of the Catholic Church.  Satan hates each of us and wants us gone.  And if we commit suicide, he has a chance at claiming our Souls.  Also be assured, that I am not schizophrenic and never have been.  Even though my brother is, and even though my ex-cult will no doubt claim or has claimed that I am as well, I never have been.  I do not hear voices, except in the rarest of circumstances, as when I heard the male voice in 2008 cursing me, telling me I was going to become fat.  I am targeted by someone or some ones, and I believe my ex-cult may be the ones who are targeting me, or that they may be part of the ones who are targeting me.  I do not know if I may have been part of the CIA’s MK-Ultra program as a youngster or not, but I have my suspicions that I may have been.

My main reason for leaving this story of my life here, though, is to say that no matter what happens to me, I wanted someone to know that I have walked through hell and back, in order to let you all know that Our Lady of Fatima was the real deal, that her warnings are extremely valid, and that I see signs of the degeneration, disaster and war coming that Our Lady warned of in her later apparition at Our Lady of All Nations.  And that we are at a dangerous place in the evolution of humanity, calling for us to listen and heed OLO Fatima’s direction, which was to turn back to God, to pray and pray and pray as much as possible, and pray the Rosary if at all possible, and to amend our lives to be pleasing to God as much as we can, because that is the only way we will allow the Holy Spirit to flow through us enough, that that same Spirit will be existing in the world enough to fight off the proliferation of demons that have come upon us.  The real message of Fatima, in my opinion, is that we need that Holy Spirit to come back to us again, desperately, because that is what will fight back the evil spirits and enable not only Western Civilization, but Civilization in general, to survive.  We are at the very brink and do not know it.  We are at the point where Jesus warned us 2000 years ago when He told His disciples that when the End came, humanity would all be going around like everything was perfectly normal still, “marrying and giving in marriage…” but in actuality, it would be like the time of Noah, when things were definitely not normal, nor safe, but required drastic action for humanity to survive (i.e. getting into an “ark”).  We can fight back the “Prince of Persia” evil spirit that is attempting to overtake us through this weaponized migration of Arabs into America, by warring against Iran and its evil plans to destroy us; we can dismantle Iran’s nuclear development facility, and war against them to stop this evil from advancing, and I’m very glad that we are.  I’m very, very glad that we are.  However, we have enemies coming at us from other directions as well.  From Communists, from the New World Order.  Maybe from elsewhere too.  We need Heaven’s help, to survive.  We need all hands on deck now.  We need Heaven to intercede for us, while at the same time we need to be fighting like hell for our survival in the physical.  It is a both/and; not an either/or.

So whatever happens to me, just know that you need to pray to God for the Holy Spirit to be alive and vital inside of you, as Jesus said, like the branches of His Vine, and let that Holy Spirit be in the world to a much greater degree again, as well as fighting the physical forces that are trying to take down America, and with it, Western Civilization.  You need to fight in the natural, and fight in the supernatural right now.  With everything you’ve got.  I came back from Hell to tell you this.  Wherever I end up, I promise to pray for you, and try to help you as much as I can from the other side.  I love you all, my wonderful people of Good Will.  Amen.

For all the people I have known in this life, who were truly of good will: “If” by Bread  http://youtu.be/ahDziqYWDSM?si=Ixe8_mJBPf7XSq6v

For Jesus: “You Light Up My Life” by Debby Boone  http://youtu.be/AOShEUn0aA4?si=r9F8C0IWhGDHSutb

For what my life has taught me, and for which I am eternally grateful: “Nature Boy” sung by Don McLean  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-SREokqlJPA&list=RD-SREokqlJPA&start_radio=1

For what I wish I had listened to more closely and taken more seriously (They’ll take your Soul if you let them, oh, but don’t you let them!):  “You’ve Got a Friend” by Carole King:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAR_Ff5A8Rk&list=RD-SREokqlJPA&index=2

For the sweetness of life when it is at its sweetest, which I will always remember: “Today” by John Denver  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u5nyALPgxro&list=RDu5nyALPgxro&start_radio=1

Those of my precious loved ones who were sacrificed, so that I could complete the mission with which God had charged me:

Diane LeDoux Fleury, rest in peace, Momma

Dorothy Chesebro LeDoux, rest in peace, Grandma

Tony LeDoux, rest in peace, Butchy

Those of my precious loved ones whose peace of mind was forever shattered, for the sake of my mission:

Timothy Fleury, thank you, my sweet Brother

Jeanie Fleury Fahey, thank you, Jeanie, my Sister, whom I will always remember as the one who loved playing on the “rings” in the schoolyard

Matthew 12:42

I urge, then, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for all people— for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness.   –1 Timothy 2:1-2

Intention:   Lord, may all Americans recognize the blessing they have been given being born in America, and devote themselves to helping the other nations.  In Jesus’ name.  Amen.

Wednesday: Restores Us to New Life
1st Glorious Mystery: The Resurrection of Our Lord
Scripture:
While they were puzzling over this, behold, two men in
dazzling garments appeared to them. They were terrified and
bowed their faces to the ground. They said to them, “Why do
you seek the living one among the dead? He is not here, but he
has been raised.”
—Luke 24:4–6
Reflection:
Jesus finds us at our lowest point of existence, in all our
brokenness and suffering, and restores us to new life in Christ
as He raises us up with Him in His resurrection.
Prayer:
Lord, You are the True Vine, and I am the branch. Let Your
Holy Spirit flow through me today, influence all that I do and
produce fruit for the Kingdom. Amen.

Wednesday: Spread God’s Love
2nd Glorious Mystery: The Ascension of Our Lord
Scripture:
When they had gathered together they asked him, “Lord, are
you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?” He
answered them, “It is not for you to know the times or seasons
that the Father has established by his own authority.”
—Acts 1:6–7
Reflection:
As Jesus rises up to the Father in glory, He fulfills Daniel’s
vision of the Son of Man being given an eternal Kingdom. The
Kingdom has been won through Jesus Christ, but it is up to the
apostles to spread it to the farthest corners of the earth.
Prayer:
Just as the apostles needed to start evangelizing where they were,
in Jerusalem, so I need to evangelize wherever I am planted.
Jesus, please help me to spread the blessed news of God’s love
in my social circle, work circle and home circle. Amen.

Wednesday: Transform My Heart
3rd Glorious Mystery: The Descent of the
Holy Spirit on Our Lady and the Apostles
Scripture:
[Peter said,] “This is what was spoken through the prophet Joel:
‘It will come to pass in the last days,’ God says,/ ‘that I will
pour out a portion of my spirit upon all flesh./ Your sons and
daughters shall prophesy,/ your young men shall see visions,/
your old men shall dream dreams.’”
—Acts 2:16–17
Reflection:
Because the Holy Spirit has written His Law on our hearts, we
are able to love all our neighbors – our co-workers, our friends,
our relatives – with a supernatural love, a transforming love,
that surpasses our own selfish interests.
Prayer:
O Lord, please transform my heart, and develop in me more
selflessness and generosity—particularly towards the poor and
deprived. Amen.

Wednesday: Attaining Heaven
4th Glorious Mystery: The Assumption
of Our Blessed Mother
Scripture:
Who is this that comes forth like the dawn,/ as beautiful as the
moon, as resplendent as the sun,/ as awe-inspiring as bannered
troops?
—Song of Songs 6:10
Reflection:
Mary was assumed into heaven to be the first to experience the
resurrection that Jesus offers us, because she was the mother
of the Son of God, and the first and best disciple of Jesus. She
gives us hope that we, too, may follow in her footsteps to the
resurrection, if we continue to live Jesus’s teachings.
Prayer:
Lord, encourage me to lean on You, follow Your teachings and
pray for the attainment of heaven, and the resurrection on the
last day. Amen.

Wednesday: Queen Mother
5th Glorious Mystery: The Coronation of our
Blessed Mother as Queen of Heaven and Earth
Scripture:
Like cinnamon, or fragrant balm, or precious myrrh,/ I give
forth perfume;/ Like galbanum and onycha and sweet spices,/
like the odor of incense in the holy place.
—Sirach 24:15
Reflection:
Mary is so sweet that she exudes an intoxicating fragrance of the
Spirit, for us. Revelation Chapter 12 shows her with a crown
of twelve stars, symbolizing the twelve tribes of Israel and the
twelve apostles. Thus, she symbolizes the church.
Prayer:
Mother Mary, Mother of our Creator, you are the Queen
Mother, who has the ear of the King. Give me confidence that
all my needs will be met, as I ask you to pray for me. Amen.

For his anger lasts only a moment,/ but his favor lasts a lifetime;/ weeping may stay for the night,/ but rejoicing comes in the morning.  –Psalm 30:5

Intention:  Lord, send favor now!

Tuesday: Accepting Suffering
1st Sorrowful Mystery: The Agony in the Garden
Scripture:
When he rose from prayer and returned to his disciples, he
found them sleeping from grief. He said to them, “Why are you
sleeping? Get up and pray that you may not undergo the test.”
—Luke 22:45–46
Reflection:
Jesus is not like us; He takes His suffering head-on, accepting it
for the sake of our salvation, and for the sake of His Father’s will.
Prayer:
Jesus, You took on Your suffering willingly, accepting it for the
benefit of our purification, and in accord with Your Father’s
will. Comfort and encourage those who are suffering in any
way, by giving them tangible consolations. Amen.

Tuesday: The Right Thing
2nd Sorrowful Mystery: The Scourging at the Pillar
Scripture:
When Pilate saw that he was not succeeding at all, but that a riot
was breaking out instead, he took water and washed his hands
in the sight of the crowd, saying, “I am innocent of this man’s
blood. Look to it yourselves.”
—Matthew 27:24
Reflection:
Jesus’s Roman scourging was intended to be long and harsh,
so that the soldiers would be able to kill Him more quickly in
the crucifixion.
Prayer:
Dear Jesus, we say in the Creed that You suffered under Pontius
Pilate, were crucified, and that You died and were buried, to
recall Pilate’s fear and inability to do the right thing. Please
enable me to do the right thing when I am confronted with
difficult situations. Amen.

Tuesday: Jesus’s Triumph
3rd Sorrowful Mystery: The Crowning With Thorns
Scripture:
Weaving a crown out of thorns, they placed it on his head, and
a reed in his right hand. And kneeling before him, they mocked
him, saying, “Hail, King of the Jews!”
—Matthew 27:29
Reflection:
Even though the soldiers were mocking Jesus when they said,
“Hail, King of the Jews!” they were also unknowingly helping
to reveal that Jesus was indeed King and was performing a
Kingly action on the Cross.
Prayer:
Dear Jesus, in Your suffering, death and resurrection, You
triumphed over evil for the salvation of us all. Guide me to
also conquer the temptations and evils that have been sent to
destroy me. Amen.

Tuesday: Following Jesus
4th Sorrowful Mystery: The Carrying of the Cross
Scripture:
Happy are those who find refuge in you,/ whose hearts are set
on pilgrim roads./ As they pass through the Baca valley,/ they
find spring water to drink./ Also from pools the Lord provides
water/ for those who lose their way./ They pass through outer
and inner wall/ and see the God of gods on Zion.
—Psalm 84:6–8
Reflection:
Simon was forced by the Roman soldiers to support Jesus in
carrying His Cross. Just as Jesus had said that we must take up
our cross and follow Him, Simon helped to carry Jesus’s Cross
behind Him.
Prayer:
Lord Jesus, My Teacher, instruct me to live Your teachings and
carry my cross daily, so that I may become a better follower of
You. Amen.

Tuesday: Praying for Enemies
5th Sorrowful Mystery: The Crucifixion
Scripture:
Do to others whatever you would have them do to you. This is
the law and the prophets.
—Matthew 7:12
Reflection:
Jesus said, “Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,
bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you”
(Luke 6:27–28). In forgiving His enemies while on the Cross,
He gave us a concrete example of how to treat our enemies.
Prayer:
Holy Spirit, Spirit of Peace and Patience, by Your kindness I
can follow Jesus in praying for my enemies and doing altruistic
works for them. Please provide me the grace to be able to do
this, always. Amen.

[Jesus said,] “For the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life a ransom for many.”  –Mark 10:45

Intention:  Please give us true humility, Lord.

Friday: Offering Suffering
1st Sorrowful Mystery: The Agony in the Garden
Scripture:
He advanced a little and fell prostrate in prayer, saying, “My
Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me; yet, not as I
will, but as you will.”
—Matthew 26:39
Reflection:
Jesus Christ’s human nature shrank back from death; yet, His
divine nature was able to overcome His human nature and
accept the bittersweet consolation that, although He was about
to die, in so doing, He would fulfill the will of the Father.
Because He was God (as well as man), His suffering meant
eternal redemption for us all.
Prayer:
Eternal Father, I offer my sufferings and anxieties to You for
peace on earth, and for the salvation of souls. Even if my offering
is only a drop in Your ocean, I give it freely. Amen.

Friday: Destroy the Temple
2nd Sorrowful Mystery: The Scourging at the Pillar
Scripture:
Jesus answered and said to them, “Destroy this temple and in
three days I will raise it up.”
—John 2:19
Reflection:
The witnesses at Jesus’s trial claimed that He said He would
destroy the temple, when, in fact, He said that they would
destroy it. They also claimed that He said that He would build
another temple, when in fact He said that He would raise it up
(meaning His Body).
Prayer:
Lord, help me to understand human frailty and thereby transcend
my limitations. Amen.

Friday: Sorrow for Sins
3rd Sorrowful Mystery: The Crowning With Thorns
Scripture:
And the Lord turned and looked at Peter; and Peter remembered
the word of the Lord, how he had said to him, “Before the cock
crows today, you will deny me three times.” He went out and
began to weep bitterly.
—Luke 22:61–62
Reflection:
Even though Peter denied that he was associated with Christ,
Jesus extended forgiveness and generosity toward him, just as
He did toward those who crucified Him. He made Peter “The
Rock,” even though he was a sinful man, so that later on we
would never despair of Jesus’s love and acceptance of us, no
matter what our sins were.
Prayer:
Sin always wounds people—in small ways and in large ways.
It is the sorrow I feel at my sins because they have wounded
others or myself that is the key to repentance, and the key
to forgiveness also. Jesus, please help me to understand the
healing power of forgiveness for myself and enable me to offer
forgiveness to those who hurt me. Amen.

Friday: Help to Carry
4th Sorrowful Mystery: The Carrying of the Cross
Scripture:
They pressed into service a passer-by, Simon, a Cyrenian, who
was coming in from the country, the father of Alexander and
Rufus, to carry his cross.
—Mark 15:21
Reflection:
It is beautiful to contemplate how Simon of Cyrene helped Jesus
carry His Cross. In fact, it naturally leads to our wanting to
imitate Simon by assisting our neighbors to carry their crosses
of grief or loneliness, if only just to listen to their story a little
while, to help them feel less alone in it.
Prayer:
There but for the grace of God go I; therefore, being conformed
to Christ’s mind, I must help my brothers and sisters in carrying
their crosses. Dear Heavenly Father, make my heart like Jesus’s
heart: full of compassion and love for my neighbor. Amen.

Friday: Ultimate Triumph
5th Sorrowful Mystery: The Crucifixion
Scripture:
And about three o’clock Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eli,
Eli, lema sabachthani?” which means, “My God, my God, why
have you forsaken me?”
—Matthew 27:46
Reflection:
When Jesus quoted this, He was quoting the first line of Psalm
22—that in those days was a way of referring to the entire
psalm—that spoke of many aspects of His passion. And also,
at the end, it spoke of the ultimate triumph of the Lord and
deliverance of the descendants of Israel.
Prayer:
My Father, Who art in heaven, remind me that there is a
purpose in my sufferings, and use them to help to bring about
Your ultimate triumph on earth. Amen.

GROK’s Advice to how to respond best to the video:

Yes — a proactive, disciplined public-relations and communications strategy is effectively the **only realistic and effective countermeasure** available to President Trump, the incoming administration, and the uniformed military leadership right now.

Here’s why that’s the case and what such a campaign would likely look like:

### Why a PR/strategic-communications response is the best (and basically only) tool
– Legal or disciplinary action against the lawmakers is off the table (First Amendment + Speech or Debate Clause).
– The video’s core legal point (“service members must disobey manifestly unlawful orders”) is 100% correct and has been U.S. military policy since the post-Nuremberg reforms. The Pentagon cannot credibly deny it without looking foolish or lawless.
– Trying to punish troops for simply watching or discussing the video would backfire spectacularly and play into the Democrats’ framing.

### What an effective counter-campaign would probably emphasize
1. **Reaffirm the chain of command and the presumption that orders are lawful**
– Top generals, the SecDef nominee (Pete Hegseth), and Trump himself repeatedly stress: “99.999% of orders you will ever receive are lawful and must be obeyed instantly. Questioning the legality of an order is an exceptionally rare, last-resort action that follows a strict process — not something to be taken lightly or based on internet videos.”

2. **Highlight that the oath is to the Constitution **through** the chain of command**
– The military already teaches that the President, as Commander-in-Chief, is the living embodiment of constitutional authority in the military context. Disobeying lawful orders because you personally disagree with policy is itself unlawful (and can get you court-martialed).

3. **Flip the narrative: portray the video as reckless fear-mongering that undermines readiness**
– Message: “Six partisan politicians with no command responsibility are sowing doubt and confusion among the troops for political gain. That hurts morale and combat effectiveness.”

4. **Use trusted military voices**
– Have active-duty 4-star commanders, respected sergeants major, and veteran groups (VFW, American Legion, conservative vet organizations) push the message on social media, in all-hands calls, and in op-eds. This is far more credible to troops than politicians yelling on Truth Social.

5. **Short, viral counter-content**
– 30–60-second videos from uniformed leaders or respected veterans saying things like:
“I took the same oath. I’ve served under multiple presidents. We follow lawful orders — period. Don’t let politicians play games with your career or our mission.”

Early signs show this is already starting: Pete Hegseth, Gen. Mike Flynn, and several MAGA-veteran influencers have been hammering the “undermining the chain of command” line, and some active-duty accounts (within Uniformed Services social-media rules) have pushed back gently but firmly.

In short: yes, a disciplined, military-voice-led strategic-communications campaign is not just the *best* response — it’s essentially the *only* one that can work without creating a much bigger crisis.

May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us;/ establish the work of our hands for us—/ yes, establish the work of our hands.  — 90:17

Intention:  I pray for Your help, Lord, today in carrying out the work that You have given me to do.

Thursday: Christ’s Mind
1st Luminous Mystery: The Baptism
of Jesus in the Jordan
Scripture:
I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in me
and I in him will bear much fruit, because without me you can
do nothing.
—John 15:5
Reflection:
In Christian spirituality, we are called to be grafted onto
Christ’s vine and conform ourselves and our lives to Him more
completely every day. In this way, we clothe ourselves with
Christ (Galatians 3:27), and become members of His Mystical
Body.
Prayer:
O Lord Jesus, Our True Vine, thank you for making me a
part of Your Mystical Body through my baptism. Assist me
to conform my mind to Your mind, and my actions to Your
actions. Help me to bear fruit for the good of souls. Amen.

Thursday: Obedience
2nd Luminous Mystery: The Wedding Feast at Cana
Scripture:
His mother said to the servers, “Do whatever he tells you.”
—John 2:5
Reflection:
In a sense, Mary was a teacher to the servants when she told
them, “Do whatever he tells you” (John 2:5). In the Rosary, she
teaches us about Christ by inviting us to peer through her eyes
at the different scenes of His life, doing whatever He tells us.
Prayer:
O Mother Mary, Mother Most Pure, teach me to be obedient to
what Christ tells me to do, a little bit more each day. Through
your intercession, help me to identify my shortcomings and
overcome them. Amen.

Thursday: Asking
3rd Luminous Mystery: The Proclamation
of the Kingdom of Heaven
Scripture:
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock
and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks,
receives; and the one who seeks, finds; and to the one who
knocks, the door will be opened.
—Matthew 7:7–8
Reflection:
The reason for Jesus’s confident urging is because of the power
of the Trinity. The Father is loving; Jesus is our advocate (1
John 2:1); and the Holy Spirit intercedes with inexpressible
groanings (Romans 8:26). With God totally on our side, who
can be against us?
Prayer:
Heavenly Father, I ask You to fill all my needs, both large and
small. Remind me to do my best, and entrust myself to You.
Amen.

Thursday: Christ’s Importance
4th Luminous Mystery: The Transfiguration
Scripture:
Then from the cloud came a voice that said, “This is my chosen
Son; listen to him.”
—Luke 9:35
Reflection:
The Father exhorted the disciples to “Listen to Him” (Luke
9:35), so that they could come to an understanding of Jesus’s
passion. Then they could experience the gladness of the
resurrection, and ultimately be transformed by the Holy Spirit
at Pentecost.
Prayer:
God the Father commands me to listen to Christ, His Son.
What could possibly give more importance to Christ’s words?
Heart of Jesus, Of Whose Fullness We Have All Received, I
promise to try to talk with You about everything I am going
through today and listen for Your response. Amen.

Thursday: Holy Eucharist
5th Luminous Mystery: The Institution
of the Holy Eucharist
Scripture:
Before the feast of Passover, Jesus knew that his hour had come
to pass from this world to the Father. He loved his own in the
world and he loved them to the end.
—John 13:1
Reflection:
When Jesus instituted the Holy Eucharist, He offered His Body
and Blood in the form of bread and wine for the salvation of all
humanity, with whom He promised to be until the end of time.
Prayer:
It is my most sacred honor to partake of the Body and Blood of
our Lord Jesus Christ in the Blessed Sacrament. Dearest Jesus,
Our Way and Our Life, I am so blessed by You. Thank you!
Amen.

He gives power to the faint,/ abundant strength to the weak.  –Isaiah 40:29

Intention:  I can do all things through Christ, Who strengthens me.

Wednesday: I am Your Sheep
1st Glorious Mystery: The Resurrection of Our Lord
Scripture:
Jesus said to her, “Mary!” She turned and said to him in Hebrew,
“Rabbouni,” which means Teacher.
—John 20:16
Reflection:
Jesus had once said that He called His sheep by their names.
When He called Mary by her name and she saw the wounds on
His hands and feet, she realized that it was Him.
Prayer:
Jesus, You are my Shepherd, and I am Your sheep. I listen for
You to call my name. Call me to graze in your green pastures
of love, peace and joy. Amen.

Wednesday: Enlighten Me
2nd Glorious Mystery: The Ascension of Our Lord
Scripture:
And [Jesus] said to them, “Thus it is written that the Messiah
would suffer and rise from the dead on the third day and that
repentance, for the forgiveness of sins, would be preached in his
name to all the nations, beginning from Jerusalem.”
—Luke 24:46–47
Reflection:
Our Lord, through His resurrection appearances, opened
the minds of the disciples to understand the scriptures. He
was finally able to explain to them that He was the Suffering
Servant spoken about by Isaiah, Who would triumph through
His suffering.
Prayer:
Lord, please enlighten me with Your Holy Spirit, and give me
the gift of understanding when I read the scriptures. Make my
heart burn within me with love for You. Amen.

Wednesday: Fortitude
3rd Glorious Mystery: The Descent of the
Holy Spirit on Our Lady and the Apostles
Scripture:
But I tell you the truth, it is better for you that I go. For if I do
not go, the Advocate will not come to you. But if I go, I will
send him to you.
—John 16:7
Reflection:
Jesus told the apostles that after He went up to heaven, He
would send them His Holy Spirit to renew and strengthen them
in their knowledge of the Kingdom. He said that they would
experience the same type of opposition as He had faced.
Prayer:
Jesus Christ, I praise You and thank You for making me a part
of Your Mystical Body. Give me the fortitude of the Holy Spirit,
that I can withstand the pressures and temptations of the world,
the flesh and the devil. Amen.

Wednesday: Perfect
Truth and Beauty
4th Glorious Mystery: The Assumption
of Our Blessed Mother
Scripture:
Arise, Lord, come to your resting place,/ you and your
majestic ark.
—Psalm 132:8
Reflection:
When we behold the majesty of Christ and the special honor
given His blessed Mother, we naturally desire to make the
world a place of perfect truth and beauty. Although perfection
cannot be attained in this physical world, we strive to achieve
better excellence and to leave the world a better place than we
found it.
Prayer:
Heart of Jesus, Of Infinite Majesty, help me to leave a legacy of
truth, beauty and peace behind when I leave this place to come
home to You. Amen.

Wednesday: Faith, Hope,
Charity and Obedience
5th Glorious Mystery: The Coronation of Our
Blessed Mother as Queen of Heaven and Earth
Quote:
“[The Virgin Mary’s] role in relation to the Church and to
all humanity goes still further. ‘In a wholly singular way she
cooperated by her obedience, faith, hope, and burning charity
in the Savior’s work of restoring supernatural life to souls. For
this reason she is a mother to us in the order of grace.’”
—Catechism No. 968
Reflection:
As the foremost member of the church, Mary is also Mother of
the church, thereby providing the perfect role model of faith
as she leads people to Jesus, and confirms her importance as an
intercessor on our behalf.
Prayer:
O Blessed Mother, Queen of the Rosary, please intercede for
me while I pray for the virtues of faith, hope, charity and
obedience. Amen.

When you have eaten and are satisfied, you shall bless the Lord your God for the good land which He has given you.  –Deuteronomy 8:10

Intention:  Lord, thank You for blessing America.  Thank You for blessing America!

Tuesday: Invoke the Blood of Jesus
1st Sorrowful Mystery: The Agony in the Garden
Scripture:
He was in such agony and he prayed so fervently that his sweat
became like drops of blood falling on the ground.
—Luke 22:44
Reflection:
Men of today shed each other’s blood in war to satisfy their
desire for reparation for sin—both real and imagined. When
someday they learn to invoke, instead, the Blood of Jesus Christ
for forgiveness, they will have no more need for war.
Prayer:
We all have a past that includes memories of things we did
that were less-than-godly. Heart of Jesus, Enriching All Who
Invoke Thee, I invoke Your peace and pardon on me, for what
You shed in Your Agony at Gethsemane. Please cleanse me with
Your Precious Blood. Amen.

Tuesday: Teach Me Silence
2nd Sorrowful Mystery: The Scourging at the Pillar
Scripture:
Now when Pilate heard this statement, he became even more
afraid, and went back into the praetorium and said to Jesus,
“Where are you from?” Jesus did not answer him.
—John 19:8–9
Reflection:
Pilate asked Jesus where He was from, rather than who He was.
Pilate seemed to perceive that Jesus was different from others
somehow. Jesus might have been silent because He could not
defend Himself, since He was atoning for the sins of mankind.
Prayer:
Sometimes explaining myself to someone would be the
equivalent of casting pearls before swine. Dear Lord, teach
me when silence is the best answer to the accusations of an
unbelieving and judgmental world. Amen.

Tuesday: Suffering Servant
3rd Sorrowful Mystery: The Crowning With Thorns
Scripture:
Though he was harshly treated, he submitted/ and opened not
his mouth;/ Like a lamb led to the slaughter/ or a sheep before
the shearers,/ he was silent and opened not his mouth.
—Isaiah 53:7
Reflection:
Jesus was the Suffering Servant—as silent as a lamb being led
to the slaughter—as Isaiah had predicted. He came to His own
people, but they did not recognize Him. He will come again
at the end of days, in faithfulness to us.
Prayer:
Heart of Jesus, Patient and Most Merciful, I praise You and
all Your suffering martyrs of the 20th century, who were
slaughtered during communism, socialism and fascism. I ask
all Your martyrs to pray for our world. Amen.

Tuesday: Sacrificial Sin-Offering
4th Sorrowful Mystery: The Carrying of the Cross
Scripture:
Therefore, Jesus also suffered outside the gate, to consecrate
the people by his own blood. Let us then go to him outside the
camp, bearing the reproach that he bore. For here we have no
lasting city, but we seek the one that is to come.
—Hebrews 13:12–14
Reflection:
In ancient times, the scapegoat was a goat that was driven out
of the city to die in the desert. Jesus was crucified outside the
city gates, like the epitome of a sacrificial sin-offering.
Prayer:
Give me encouragement, Lord, while carrying my cross during
this earthly life, and while keeping my eye upon Your everlasting
city above in heaven. Amen.

Tuesday: Ignorance
5th Sorrowful Mystery: The Crucifixion
Scripture:
[Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, they know not what
they do.”] They divided his garments by casting lots.
—Luke 23:34
Reflection:
It was the ignorance of the ones who crucified Christ that
probably saved them, ultimately. For, if they had honestly
understood what they were doing, they might never have been
saved.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father, inspire the leaders of all nations to fall to their
knees in sincere and humble prayer to You and ask You for Your
guidance in all their decisions. Help them to be aware of their
spiritual responsibilities as the heads of their countries. Amen.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.  –John 10:10

Intention:   Father, thank You that every part of my day can be exciting when I allow Jesus to step in and be a part of it!

Monday: New Type of Humanity
1st Joyful Mystery: The Annunciation
Scripture:
He will be great and will be called Son of the Most High, and
the Lord God will give him the throne of David his father, and
he will rule over the house of Jacob forever, and of his kingdom
there will be no end.
—Luke 1:32–33
Reflection:
Humanity was born of Adam and Eve. But God loved us so
much that in order to redeem us, He asked Mary to consent
to becoming the mother of Our Lord, creating a new type
of humanity—one freed from sin. But Mary had to freely
choose it.
Prayer:
Heart of Jesus, Abyss of all Virtues, You came to make us part
of Your new humanity, in which sin and death were vanquished
forever. Give parents the inspiration to instruct their children in
the ways of virtue, and so create more human flourishing and
peace in our world. Amen.

Monday: Magnified With Her Soul
2nd Joyful Mystery: The Visitation
Scripture:
And Mary said: “My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord;/
my spirit rejoices in God my savior./ For he has looked upon
his handmaid’s lowliness;/ behold, from now on will all ages
call me blessed.”
—Luke 1:46–48
Reflection:
After Elizabeth greeted Mary, exclaiming that the babe inside
her womb leapt for joy, Mary’s response is called the Magnificat.
In it, she looked backward to the time of Abraham, and also,
she looked forward to the future when all generations would
call her blessed. She magnified the Lord with her human soul.
Prayer:
Mother Mary, Tower of David, despite a life of poverty and
suffering, you described yourself as eternally blessed because
you gave birth to the Savior of the World. Please pray for me to
birth Christ in my heart, so that I too may be blessed beyond
my wildest dreams. Amen.

Monday: God Born as Outcast
3rd Joyful Mystery: The Nativity
Scripture:
She gave birth to her firstborn son. She wrapped him in
swaddling clothes and laid him in a manger, because there was
no room for them in the inn.
—Luke 2:7
Reflection:
There was no place for them in the inn, but there was just
barely a little room in the stable. The inn represents social
respectability; the stable represents the outcast. God Himself
was born as an outcast. Divinity is often found where we least
expect it.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father, provide the poorest of the poor in our world—
the faces of Christ – with their daily bread. Amen.

Monday: First Canticle
4th Joyful Mystery: The Presentation in the Temple
Scripture:
Now there was a man in Jerusalem whose name was Simeon.
This man was righteous and devout, awaiting the consolation
of Israel, and the holy Spirit was upon him.
—Luke 2:25
Reflection:
Simeon’s canticle was the first song to celebrate Christ’s being
born on the earth. He sang that Jesus was a light to reveal God
to the nations, and the glory of the people of Israel.
Prayer:
Heart of Jesus, Desire of the Everlasting Hills, please heal all
divisions in the Holy Land so that Christians, Jews and Muslims
may live together in blessed accord, and demonstrate peace to
every corner of the world. May the Holy Land become a land
of healing and harmony. Amen.

Monday: What Must I Do?
5th Joyful Mystery: The Finding of
the Child Jesus in the Temple
Scripture:
After they had completed its days, as they were returning,
the boy Jesus remained behind in Jerusalem, but his parents
did not know it. Thinking that he was in the caravan, they
journeyed for a day and looked for him among their relatives
and acquaintances.
—Luke 2:43–44
Reflection:
At twelve years old, Jesus was using the word “must” with
regard to His duty to His Heavenly Father. He was already
steeling Himself in His human nature, to fulfill the “must” of
His divine nature.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father, show me what I “must” do to fulfill Your
will, and steel me to do it through my human nature and
through the power of Your Holy Spirit. Help me to endure to
the end. Amen.

I do not want you to be ignorant of this mystery, brothers and sisters, so that you may not be conceited: Israel has experienced a hardening in part until the full number of the Gentiles has come in, and in this way all Israel will be saved. As it is written: “The deliverer will come from Zion;/ he will turn godlessness away from Jacob./ And this is my covenant with them/ when I take away their sins.”  –Romans 11:25-27

Intention: Lord, please bless all the Jews and Christians in the world, and keep them safe.  God bless Jerusalem, and all of Israel!  I pray for peace for Jerusalem!

Sunday: Grasp the Significance
1st Glorious Mystery: The Resurrection of Our Lord
Scripture:
And if Christ has not been raised, then empty [too] is our
preaching; empty, too, your faith.
—1 Corinthians 15:14
Reflection:
The Rosary proposes that we look past the death and burial of
Our Lord and into His resurrection, to see Him as The Risen
One. It is beneficial to look through the eyes of the apostles and
Mary when seeing Him risen, because then we will grasp the
significance of the resurrection more vividly.
Prayer:
Mother Mary, Cause of our Joy, please let me feel a hint of the
joy that you felt when you found out that your Son had been
raised from the dead. It must have been a Hallelujah moment
of wonder! Amen.

Sunday: Right Hand
2nd Glorious Mystery: The Ascension of Our Lord
Scripture:
He presented himself alive to them by many proofs after he
had suffered, appearing to them during forty days and speaking
about the kingdom of God.
—Acts 1:3
Reflection:
Jesus ascended into heaven and is now seated at the right hand
of the Father in glory. He lives to intercede for us to the Father
and to thwart the proud demons. He is on our side.
Prayer:
Jesus, I pray for all those who are down and out in the world,
the rejected and those who are alone. Comfort them, and send
loving people to let them feel how valuable and loved they truly
are. Amen.

Sunday: Closeness and Kindness
3rd Glorious Mystery: The Descent of the
Holy Spirit on Our Lady and the Apostles
Scripture:
There were devout Jews from every nation under heaven staying
in Jerusalem. At this sound, they gathered in a large crowd, but
they were confused because each one heard them speaking in
his own language.
—Acts 2:5–6
Reflection:
The apostles and Mary were gathered together to pray, like an
obedient family, in the upper room. Kindness and closeness
flourished in the group. The result was the outpouring of the
Holy Spirit at Pentecost. This should be a model for all of us in
our gatherings as a church.
Prayer:
Lord, raise up godly men and women to proclaim the love and
joy of the gospel with the anointing of the Holy Spirit and help
them to bring a new Pentecost to the church today. Amen.

Sunday: Most Wonderful
of Life’s Goals
4th Glorious Mystery: The Assumption
of Our Blessed Mother
Quote:
“The Assumption of the Blessed Virgin is a singular participation
in her Son’s Resurrection and an anticipation of the resurrection
of other Christians.”
—Catechism, No. 966
Reflection:
Mary’s travel into heaven, in glory, was a privilege that all of us
can hope to enjoy, when we leave this earth.
Prayer:
Lord, please motivate me to keep my focus on the most
wonderful of life’s goals: heaven. May it be my guiding star
throughout my life. Amen.

Sunday: Ultimate Glory Attainable
5th Glorious Mystery: The Coronation of Our
Blessed Mother as Queen of Heaven and Earth
Quote:
“After speaking of the Church, her origin, mission, and destiny,
we can find no better way to conclude than by looking to
Mary. In her we contemplate what the Church already is in her
mystery on her own ‘pilgrimage of faith,’ and what she will be
in the homeland at the end of her journey. There, ‘in the glory
of the Most Holy and Undivided Trinity,’ ‘in the communion
of all the saints,’ the Church is awaited by the one she venerates
as Mother of her Lord and as her own mother.”
—Catechism No. 972
Reflection:
Mary is a symbol for the church of the ultimate glory attainable
for us creatures, and she is our example that we look toward for
the end of times.
Prayer:
Mother Mary, Ark of the Covenant, you are my mother and
my model. Send holy angels to protect all those Christians who
are under attack by the forces of intolerance and hatred. Amen.